When Did The Music Stop?

I have to say that i HATE what goes for music these days. I am one of the millions of people in the world that loves her MP3 player. I haven't listened to the radio in forever. Recently i misplaced my mp3 player (it's either in my car or stashed betwix the cushion seats) and have been subjected to the awful array of shite music. I live in South Carolina so the stations of course suck (sorry, i'm from DC and ALL the stations rule)! but to my astonishment, i actually heard a song titled...I'm in love with a stripper. And another titled shake that laffy taffy. WTF!? I know that my parents too felt that the music the "yout's" (my parents have strong Trinidadian accents..lol) listened to was simply tripe when i was trying to be Madonna or Janet Jackson, but holy crap! I have to say that in my ripe age of almost 28 i feel like an old fogey because i can't stand the sight of Brittany Spears and any other no talent hussy (or husser) that is popular because they have a somewhat decent voice or an ass that won't quit. What happened to the music? When did talent become a distant concern to a pretty face? Does anyone remember Tracy Chapman? What happened to good ol' R&B like Boyz 2 Men, Stevie Wonder, and Earth Wind and Fire? Funk like George Clinton, Queen and Prince? Rock like the Doobie Brothers and trusty Willie Nelson? I browse itunes in search of forgotten gems (i'm sorry but can we stop sampling already?! If i wanted to hear Stevie Wonder or Sting, i'll listen to them and not Puff Daddy and his entourage rapping..badly). I've discovered Janis Joplin and Creedence (which is a big discovery for a girl who frequented go-go and hip hop clubs) thanks to my husband's redneck roots. I love Zero 7, Iron and Wine, Nelly Furtado, The Beatles (thanks Nic) and Polyphonic Spree. If you love R&B i suggest highly India.aire shouldn't say that all the new music is bad, but when are we going to stop these corporate machines and bring the back the music?

I'm a Wreck

It's been a week since our second pregnancy freak out. I've had two sonograms since yet still i'm a freakin'' wreck. Everytime i need to use the bathroom, i go with butterflies in my stomach. With Isabella, i didn't have a worry in the world, but with this one, i don't know. I'm scared to go to the gym. I'm scared to be with my husband. I'm scared of every gas bubble! People say that my tiredness and nausea is a good sign and not to worry too much about it. Jeez, i wish it was that easy.
On a happier note (this blog is to celebrate my daily musings!!) Isabella is about walking. She's a trip and she surely knows how to make you laugh. This morning she danced whilst Elmo sang about wild animals..lol. Thank God for the little things.

Thumbsucker

Yesterday the Netflix fairy left Thumbsucker in my mailbox. I couldn't remember why the hell i even wanted it, but damn it, that film was GREAT! It's a journey about a boy who finds great comfort sucking his thumb at 17. His father hates it, his mother ignores it, and so on. Anyway, the real meat of the film is that we all are these scared beings and we are constantly fighting to find comfort. Some of us compete; some entertain fun and ridiculous notions; work constantly; do drugs; or even strive to be "normal". This film made me feel like it was streamed from my own consciencense(pardon the spelling if it's spelled all wrong)...even the music by the Polyphonic Spree just seemed perfect. Another reason why i dug it, is because when a person wakes up one day- like i did about two years ago- and realizes "omg. i'm a grown- up!" they assume that they must have all the answers. We don't have all the answers. Maybe there are no answers. Maybe the answer is 42. We just gotta find that balance between sanity and insanity that takes a lifetime to maintain! Just because we thought our parents had all the answers, the truth of the matter is they are just as scared as you are. Watch this film and you too will realize that we are all thumbsuckers.

Happy Birthday

Let's sing a chours of happy birthdays all around! Yesterday was my mother's mumble mumble and my darling Peter's birthday. Today is Larry's 28th birthday- he's not even acknowlodging it- and Isabella's 1st birthday had she been born on time instead at 28 weeks. Happy Birthday Everyone! Only 29 days until mine! Yahoo!

Pie Makes It Better

I made my chipotle chili not at its full alarm- heartburn is not on my to- do list. What made everything so heavenly was my homemade Bing Cherry and Blackberry pie. I stood in my kitchen overzealously taking the pits out of a pound of cherries (expensive too!). I'm calling it the BB King. There's something to say about a terrific slice of pie.

I do have to admit that there was an almost overwhelming sweetness that would leave the real BB King in a diabetic comma. Due to some culinary know- how, i was able to cut the sweetness by making a not so sweet whipped topping. Yum Yum mo fos!

50/50 are the Worst Odds

I had to go to MUSC this morning at the sobering hour of 5am. I had some bleeding unfortunately. After 4 hours, they explains that i had a threatened Miscarriage. Thankfully the doctors were able to find a heartbeat and that everything was looking kosher (except the bleeding part). We are still unsure and frightened since our odds of continuing full term is 50/50. Those are the worst odds i tell yah! 60/40, 30/70 one can deal with! I know that if we miscarry it isn't because of something we did or didn't do but because my body says "hey. We started this one wrong and we gotta start all over from scratch". Keep your fingers crossed and keep us in your prayers to the Big Guy (or Girl pending your beliefs) for it rests all in His hands.

Working Out Pregnant

i went to my first Body Flow class today. It made me sore as hell but i felt real happy about it. The class is instructed by a 7 month pregnant woman! It consisted of tia chi, yoga and pilates...Interesting, huh.
You know the funny part, I haven't been to the gym in 3 month and w/in minutes i run into someone from the worst job i've ever had (West Ashley JCC receptionist) and a girl that i was friendly with in college!..lol. Small world.
It reaffirms that James Island is the place to be. We have 1 gym here and it's a small "beach" town in a small southern city. i love it here. It sure beats the hell of N.Charleston.

Abandon House on cemetery Rd

Today we spent a quiet afternoon in the country. No go carts for me this visit yet still enjoyable. Larry and TJ (my 14yr old brother-in-law) found this lone abandoned house on a long dirt road. As you can see it's pretty large but the eerie part is that it seems as if the family picked up an left in the middle of the nite. There were photos littered across the living room and bed rooms; toys and random family evidence. The kitchen was stocked and classroom drawings lined the rickety, carpeted staircase walls. Tj said it had electricity up until recently and running water. What happened? Is the house haunted like in that Nicole Kidman film The Others? Was there a portal that sucked up the family? Was it a family running from the law? I guarantee there is a logical explanation but my overactive imagination wonders why? I bet i have nightmares.

"Kick Me" by Paul Fieg

I finally laid to rest the Van Gogh biography and picked a new find. I have mentioned earlier how i adore Freaks and Geeks co- creator Judd Apatow. What i forgot to mention was the other creator, Paul Fieg. Freaks and Geeks actually used many of his traumatic adolescence living in a Midwestern town. The book shares some of his more traumatic times like apprehensively French kissing a girl for the first time not too long after she threw up; him running to his mother's aid in full drag in the middle of a major intersection(he liked his Halloween costume so much that he did it for like a month in private); and discovering his admiration for the class gym rope. It's a popcorn read (quick and yummy)titled Kick Me so check it out a the library or pick up a cheap copy in the used section of amazon.com.

7 weeks down..

Okay, it's official! i am presently 7 weeks pregnant! YAY! My husband and i couldn't be happier. Isabella will have a little brother or sister by her second birthday. I'm due August 30, 2006 which means i will experience another summertime pregnancy. Hopefull this time i will carry to full term (Isabella was 2lbs 6oz and 12 weeks early). I don't wish that on anyone 'cause when i went home 11 days after my first contractions, our lil' peanut had to stay for 31 more days. Keep your fingers crossed!

Reactions

You ever have such great news that you could burst?! Even if it's only a possibility? You are so elated that you want to climb to the highest rooftop and scream your news and just share the happiness. I have such news: i may be pregnant again! I took two tests yesterday to find a faded- but still present- plus signs in the indicator window. What a blessing! I will make really sure when i go to the doctor's office this coming week but we already told family that there is a chance of our second coming in September of this year.
The reactions across the board were generally positive and shared in our enthusiasm with the exception of a few. I was so bummed that the small percentage made me feel like they were more full of worry than happiness. It really deflated me. We are still happy and so excited (omg our kids will be almost 22 months apart!) but why do people do that? I know that one has the right to own their feelings but damn, i'm almost thirty years old; i've been happily married for 4 years now (been together for almost 7); i love being a mother; i've always wanted a big family with children close in age (my bro is 7 years older than me and it sux). i got a stronger reaction when i said my cat died.
I know that having a large family these days is looked upon as silly in some circles because of a mayrid of factors. Well, i'm aware of these factors and gosh darn it they are incidental to us because to quote the Beatles All you need is love.... and a great insurence policy..lol
Isn't this exciting. Keep your fingers crossed that the doc sees that blip on the ultrasound. If we're pregnant we'll be estatic and i'm not going to let anyone take that away from us!

Hampton Park Picnic

Happy New Year everyone! Can you believe that it's 2006 already? We didn't do anything for new year's eve other than watch different firework shows from our driveway. Goulash ran into the house and hid under Isabella's highchair...lol
For New Year's day we went to Hampton Park by the Citadel and had a family picnic. We ate pb&js while watching people have fun with the ducks and the sort. It truly was an enjoyable family afternoon. With Larry spending less time killing himself at work, we have family time more often than 30 minutes before bed (if he even got home in time). God bless these precious moments.